It's a Fucking Disaster

All my fears
And all my problems
Just get in the way
If I tell you all my secrets
There will be a price to pay
And I'll feel so contagious
With scars left on my face
No one to embrace
Gone without a trace

What do I take when nothing matters
Maybe I just kill them all
Make a mistake and my shell is shattered
Spraying your blood on the wall

Is this what I'm after
It's a fucking disaster
It's another time bomb ticking away
Is this what I'm after
It's a fucking disaster
It's another distraction that gets in the way

This is the time when I hang it out there
Risking it all for the cause
I better believe in what I'm after
I better get ready for war

Is this what I'm after
It's a fucking disaster
It's another time bomb ticking away
Is this what I'm after
It's a fucking disaster
It's another distraction that gets in the way

I have tried to free my mind
And wash away my sins
I opened up the doors inside
To try and let you in
And I feel so unstable
Ashamed of where I've been
Floating in the wind
Lost another friend

What do you say when talk is shattered
Now you are up in my face
I shouldn't talk when my thoughts are scattered
Maybe this gun is too late

Is this what I'm after
It's a fucking disaster
It's another time bomb ticking away
Is this what I'm after
It's a fucking disaster
It's another distraction that gets in the way

A shadow in the rain tonight
The fog is in my head
I wish that I could close my eyes
And be ok again
And I feel so insane now
I wish that it would end
Where do I begin
I'm crawling out of my skin