Only When I Laugh

So, it's finally over
Had to happen
But no big deal
After all of that off again and on
What else is new?

Well I said
Well, will you catch me crying
Not this kid will
Will I soon forget you
I just did
Does it really hurt me
Only when I laugh

Is my heart finally numb yet
Well, I don't think that I feel one thing
After too long of running cold and hot
Then cold
You end up blue

So I just did changing on my mailbox
Suits me fine
And since you've gone your way
I'll go mine
Does it really hurt me
Only when I laugh

Every time I fell in love
I never fell completely
The joke is
I was saving something for a person I thought was you

Well I guess I was dreaming
Glad the factor is dead and gone
And if my mind has keeps running back and forth
And back and forth
Don't take that as a clue

It was a minor operation
I pulled through
Opened up my life and took out you
The only scars the heart that's neatly torn in half
Does it really hurt me
Only when I laugh