Inner Monsters

Money can't buy happiness I disagree
Cause when you're broke as hell depression come free
Still confused on the path I was destined
My casket gon' be made from the same wood that my desk is
Mentally beaten into disbelievement
Extremely bored behind poor test scores
Hey, when ERA praised over GPA
You learn to turn AB's into backward K's
Elbow and shoulder tethered to a diploma
Drifted focus toward the best ladder to go up
Everything corporate distorted my magnum opus
Brainwashed in social fabric, skin coated in tanning lotion
Failed to notice the compound effect in my notebook
The vision grew enormous like I came in for a close up
So close I could smell the aromas
But turned down a path for my public persona
See you later day dreamer, welcome scholar imposter
Goodbye to the American Pie and dormitory Madonnas
All-Conference but on a resume that means nada accomplished
Want me to vacate mixtapes and recording in closets
So welcome three jobs and healthcare from Obama
Congrats new mama on your beautiful daughter
We prefer you back in the office during your postpartum
Inner monsters covered by buttons and white collars

What if's boomeranging from the day I could've rapped for Sean
Wondering if my 16 was strong enough to put me on
Blue checks next to pros and cons
Find myself back pedaling a true façade
Missed opportunities nothing new to me
Just more cliff hangers for my eulogy
Mr. Play It Safe who I used to be
Can't believe that man almost ruined me
Goodbye to satisfaction in the palm of our hands
So long to synthetic happiness as follows expand
Welcome reality shadowed by the width of a band
Farewell to the puppets supplying privacy to Uncle Sam
Mirages of me stuntin' hiding the father and husband
This like button becoming a whole 'nother substance
Takin in vein, abusing its function
Don't compare to real love we just want someone to touch it
Scusi for arriving a little late to the party
First time without a disguise Dana Carvey
Now if you don't mind my self-destruction is starting
And I could name every person that would purchase a box seat