Tightrope

I could feel (I could feel) my heart sink
I had been pushed (I had been pushed) to the brink

Losing this conflict was all I could handle
I thought my world was ending
But it was only expanding
It wasn't the emotion I thought I'd expect
"This won't happen" was engrained in my head

My absence was always my escape
I wasn't in the best place (best place)
You're owed memories I can't restore
Not stories of wayfare and folklore

My undivided attention was served in seconds
For you I had to mend them
The best parts of me were beckoning

I swallowed my fears
I'm so grateful you're here
The last two years
Would have been unbearable (without you there)
Without you there

I thought I bided my time too long
It turns out the timing was perfect
In the end the weight was all worth it
The brightness guided me through the fog
And a constant beam of light (that set my course right)

I had taken on too much
(It took over me)
Longing for what I had when I was young
I had taken on too much
(My responsibilities) are choking me

(Setting boundaries for myself)
I'm the one who keeps walking all over them
(Creating limits for abuse)
I'm the one leaving myself battered and bruised

Where is my incentive (my incentive)
To find my healing?

I let misery be my motivator
I could sense myself slip into this crater
I'll only be one thing forever
I'll slide the scales back to the center
The agony and anguish were just all part of the endeavor