Best of Me

Gave this place the best of me
I guess it wasn't good enough
Failure is the recipe
Used most when you're down on your luck
Made my way through broken dreams
Lost family and friendships
Waded through dark memories and demons I contend with

I know I ain't no angel
But maybe I can save someone
That's focused on the end of life
Staring down the barrel of a loaded gun

Cuz it's so hard to trust someone
When you don't even trust yourself
It's so hard to love someone
When you don't even love yourself

Everything you do just never works
Want to find a place where it never hurts
Take away the pain
I feel so cursed
Want to ask for help
But it just gets worse

Is it sail or is it surf?
What's this lonely person worth?
What's the purpose for my birth?
Feels so lost and nothing works

I see the light at the end of the tunnel
But I can't walk another mile on my own
If you'd seen the dark that I'd seen and the struggle
You wouldn't walk another mile on your own

Gave this place the best of me
Guess it wasn't good enough
People want to mess with me
Pushing buttons like I would erupt

But is it just a test for me?
Sometimes I feel like giving up
Ain't that a sign that my mind has changed?

Well, it isn't like the yesteryears
I wouldn't feel so similar
Taste of whiskey on my breath
Burning this familiar
Getting rowdy
Cry for help
But no one wants to deal with ya
Ain't that a sign that the times have changed

I see the light at the end of the tunnel
But I can't walk another mile on my own
If you'd seen the dark that I'd seen and the struggle
You wouldn't walk another mile on your own

But I'm working on a better me
Mentally and physically
I battle with depression
It took its toll spiritually
But, I guess it was my weapon on the battleground of '73
I fought the darkness to the light
And realized I am a seed

That grew from roots into a tree
In me there is medicine
Stand strong through these stormy winds
And be there for my brethren

Never again will I cross the line
Wondering just who am I
I know that answer in my mind
I am alive

I live for love and family ties
I'm standing strong, I can rely
On their strength to get me by
When times get hard they will supply
Strength of spirit in my life
Ray of hope to set me right
And I won't have to wonder why I'm here again another night

On my journey
Learned to fly
I made my goals
I set my sight
Embrace the winds of change again
There's turbulence in every flight

Cuz lessons learned with shaky wings
Are blessings earned controlling fright
Don't let the darkness sent your way
Stop your heart from doing right

I see the light at the end of the tunnel
I'm gonna make it if I gotta on my own
I've seen the dark
And I've been through the struggle
I'll go the extra mile on my own
I see the light at the end of the tunnel
I'm gonna make it if I gotta on my own