Feelosophizin’

I see obliteration waiting for me
An implication I could never believe
What it meant when I’m dead
Fear the end, futile dread
Acceptance never came to me so easy
Hung up by a fear that lived inside me
Seconds pass, baited breathe
Time can’t stop in this place

Oh no
Should you wait for me holding out thinking that I’ll ever change?
Do you want to save me?

Turn the page
My mind is stuck
On words I can’t remember
My strength is drained
I can’t keep up
But I will not surrender
All along
The past has shown
That fear is not the answer
I keep myself
Steady now
My covers blown

Do you really want to know
All that lies beneath the surface of me
It’s the charade
Everything I’m hiding falls into the deep

Oh no
Should you wait for me holding out thinking that I’ll ever change?
Do you want to save me?

Turn the page
My mind is stuck
On words I can’t remember
My strength is drained
I can’t keep up
But I will not surrender
All along
The past has shown
That fear is not the answer
I keep myself
Steady now
My covers blown

And I told you
If you pushed too hard
And I told you
That I'd come undone

I'll take my time
Until I find what is eating me up inside
Clear my mind
Try to make up the time
That I wasted on things
That I thought would make me feel alive
Can't find a rhyme or reason self exploration season
(I’ve come undone!) [x4]