Vantablack Heart

I never try to depend on you, or anyone
Even my shadow leaves me in darkness
I’m tired of trying to be stronger than I feel
It’s time to remember what it’s like to feel alive

I hate this feeling
Like I’m here, but I’m not
In this blackness, I’ll have to rot
I hate this feeling
Like someone cares, but they don’t
I’m lying to myself
I don’t belong here, I don’t belong anywhere
When I’m lost and alone
And I’m sinking like a stone
I’ll know forever that I’m alone
I’ll never experience the wonders of life again

Leave me in the dark
Hidden underneath the curtain of my shadow
Hidden behind the pain and the sorrow
I pulled out the knife from my chest
There was nothing there that bled
My heart was frozen stiff
Cold, frozen by the coldness of the world
I know it’s inevitable, that I’ll live alone forever

I’m falling apart, and nobody knows
I have nobody to trust, no one to talk to
And I’m here all alone
I sing when I’m alone
I dance with my emotion when I’m upset
I paint the walls with tears when I’m sad
I paint the walls with blood when I’m mad
And when I fear what they think of me from the outside
I bottle up all the fear inside
And try to stay in this life I call hell
This life that is a lie