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Hope i live long enough to become a distraction
To be my brothers protection is what i want
Never bend the knee where my brother shunned
Never felt in peace with my grannie gun
Sorry if i ever betrayed you
And by you i mean
*beep*
And since we became cool
I need myself too
The move was to be special
The youth was just the mood
I proved that i need substance in two's
Otherwise
I'm just a guess and
The news that my time would be due destroy my parents
Hardest part of staying alive
Is i have to deal with myself
Hardest secret i had to keep
Is that i needed some help
And different stories i would tell to myself
That mean nothing but hell
All because i prefer to live on a shell
Mom was worried that i was killing my self
Pops said everyday
You need to get out of bed
If i worked that hard i wouldn't be where i am
Guess the discipline ain't come out of hand
Success looming
Looking to get something
I feel my past move me
Step into destruction abused my luck
Truly
Making it the third time is not what i expect doing