Sort Of Girlfriend

My sort of girlfriend
Has got another girlfriend
She's beautiful and she's blonde and she's got a dick
Just like me

I say it's good to have a type
As she tucks me in at night
Next to another girl
Who looks just like me

My old friend Jaiden
We were once Youths United against Satan
We sang school-yard rhymes that
I can hardly recall

It brings me no pleasure to say
Though I miss him everyday
I was supposed to have mixed his record
By last fall

That girl who loves Jobim
She's always on my team
She's tall and she's slight as an angеl
She appears

Me I sing of my unfairnеss
And my crippling self-awareness
She sings good advice
That neatly dissuades my fears

My very best friend
Who I will love until we both end
Is out making making big moves
In the big city

I say it's okay to be alone
In my solitary yellow-walled home
Where I'm the only autofictive contrarian
Right wing micro-celebrity

Those in my life, they live by the sword, and counteract my worst compulsions
I sleep by a knife and I get paid by the word and I try to evade their revulsion
Those in my life are always so clear in their thoughts, words, and actions
Me, my breaths I count five, I'm barely alive, on the heels of another psychotic reaction
And it feels like this:

[Breakdown]

(Stop, stop, stop, stop.. Stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop. That was just.. really stupid interpolation. I-I'm.. it was really indulgent. I'm sorry I—)

My sort of girlfriend
Has got another girlfriend
I hope this time this kind of arrangement doesn't almost kill me
She said not everything a test
As I'm strewn across her breast
Alongside another girl who looks just like me
(Although she does wear glasses, and I don't. I don't)