crestfallen

Bite the peach, you walk away
Joy is a mythos to you
Bite my tongue, you smile away
Your joy, my joy brings us pain
Something's in the water
Is it disappointment? face to face with poignance
Something's in the water
Tried my clairvoyance, my habit of avoidance
Did i lose it in myself? surface trauma, you was twelve
Do i even love myself? do you even love yourself?
Had to learn to get it on your own, ain't never ask for help
And once you get a hand of aid, that's sum' you never had for health
And once you get that first kiss, that's sum' you never felt
Then the mania comes in, surface times you had to dwell
That's when all your harmful habits tend to cave in on yourself
Put the blame on circumstances, never put it on yourself
Start to question if your trauma comes from life or from your cells
Planted in when you was born, or planted in by someone else
I realize you're not the issue, not the reason that i fell
I'm not crestfallen with you, i'm crestfallen with myself
Boy you're so sweet, so sweet, so sweet
I bite the peach, for now, for good
Boy you're so sweet, so sweet, so sweet
Won't you hold me? you can't always hold yourself
Boy, you're so sweet, so sweet, so sweet , Im not crestfallen with you
I bite the peach, for now, for good I'm just crestfallen with myself
Boy, you're so sweet, so sweet, so sweet And I laid the blame on you
Won't you hold me? you can't always hold yourself, forever You can come hide in my shell