Rain Makes Me Grow
I wish my brain wouldn't roam
Some days the pain has to show
Clouds come but the rain makes me grow
I live but the days come and go
I see grey need the sunshine
No sun rays in my timeline
All my thoughts in a gun fight
Won't take place in my right mind
Can't decide when I get one try
Million thoughts need a lifeline
Won't phone a friend and let it all unwind
Better if I wait for a stranger to come and fix my life
My eyes precipitate
When I get down I just sit and wait
I'm in a bout with my brain and I'm missing weight
Who's gonna litigate
Tackle my problems like Kwity Paye
I got too much to chew on my dinner plate
I'll slip off and I'll miss a day
The hours just getaway
Mind wanders over the garden wall
Is all of it fake like a Harden fall
Can I trust myself? That's the hardest call
Come open me up is my heart installed
Some days feel like I restart my crawl
Can I do this? When I start, I stall
Intrusive thoughts bombard my wall
It's the card I draw
I wish my brain wouldn't roam
Some days the pain has to show
Clouds come but the rain makes me grow
I live but the days come and go
I get mad over shit so pointless
I get annoyed when
I fuck up cuz I let all the noise in
Feel like I'm poisoned
I've been destroying
Myself now and it's so disappointing
Some days I wish I had voices
Maybe they'd tell me why I've been avoiding
The reasons the void in my life doesn't let any joy in
I try to hold tight
To the things in my old life
I feel like I sold my
Consciousness now I'm trapped in a gold mine
But I don't have a pickaxe just my own mind
Gotta dig my thoughts out just to give my soul light
Was it all a cold lie?
Am I stuck like this? I wish I could pin it down like I bowled strikes
Look at me the same if I can
But I don't think it matters if I'm not even my fan
Used to say that I would be the man
But I just fell apart so I can't see the plan
I wish my brain wouldn't roam
Some days the pain has to show
Clouds come but the rain makes me grow
I live but the days come and go
Why do I live a lie alone, I live a lie alone
I think I'm running out of hope, I'm running out of hope
Rain falls I try stay afloat, I try to stay afloat
I bloom but I have thorns like a rose, like a rose, like a rose
I wish my brain wouldn't roam
Some days the pain has to show
Clouds come but the rain makes me grow
I live but the days come and go