First Responder

I've always been running from you
But now is not the time
To relapse back to this paralyzing victimhood

I've always distracted myself
But these thoughts are so intrusive
I can't relax long enough to do any good

And you don't have to try to convince me life's worth living
Cuz i've heard it before
I don't wanna die
I'm just confused and desperate
A victim of these troubling thoughts
A victim of these troubling thoughts
A victim of these troubling thoughts

I've always been running from you
But this darkness licks my vision
I peer into its depths til i'm completely blind

I've always distracted myself
But i'm running out of excusеs
Entangled in its tendrils til i'm trapped insidе

And you don't have to try to convince me life's worth living
Cuz i've heard it before
I don't wanna die
I'm just confused and desperate
A victim of these troubling thoughts

And it might be easy for you
To just be strong
But i never quite got my mind figured out
Now it's all wrong

And you don't have to lie to convince me life's worth living
Cuz i've heard it before
I'm not gonna die
I'm just trapped in a cycle
Recycling all these troubling thoughts
Recycling all these troubling thoughts
Recycling all these troubling thoughts