From J to Joi

I want you to know what you mean to me, how I envy
Yeah
Appreciate what you did for me
Appreciate what you done for me
Them summer nights and those cold winters when I tried to sleep and you'd comfort me
You'd come for me when they came for me
They shed me in a bad light
Through thick and thin like the Bailey twins, with my left hook, you threw the right
Thinking about what could've been, what you should've been, what you could've did but you didn't
Opportunity's missing
Gave it all up to allow me to live and I took advantage of that wishful thinking
Time flies and I was only blinking
I want you to know what you mean to me, how I envy your compassion for me
Late nights when you laughed for me
When daddy left, you'd cry for me
I paid attention and I didn't take it for granted, listen
I look to god cause I'm always wishing
For your safety, I don't need permission
To protect you, to cherish you, I'm detached but you're never missing
From my thoughts, from my heart, from the confines of my love and yes
I cut to make these scars but your belief will take me far, girl
My heart's turning in twirls
Irish twins, you're my world
I'm the diamond, you're the pearl
Tempering my steel for me
Sharpening my wits for me
Disqualifying what I hadn't considered to be a very bad look for me
And I didn't ask
It's really crazy, I didn't even have to ask
Books for school, or money for shoes, or to bare bad news or to just pay gas
I reflect
See what is and what was
You charge in this life, while I'm making these puddles
I want you to know what you mean to me, how I envy your compassion for me
Late nights when you laughed for me
When daddy left, you'd cry for me
I paid attention and I didn't take it for granted, listen
Man, know what, you want to know what I think?
I was down bad, so close to brink
I snapped that day when I stood at the sink
Contemplating on what you'd think
Would you hate me?
Would you lose me?
With a nobody, you'd confuse me
Pound for pound, I lost that round called "life," and the will for you to use me
As a big brother, maybe another father figure with seven figures
By rhyming words with the rhythm rhythm, make the girls smitten, make mama listen
To how I felt about the suicide and the hard times and how I'd ride till the wheels fall off
And to the ends of time for you, yeah
"J" the joyful noise, give me life, love and
Poise
"O" the optimist, opportunist with the unrivaled intelligence
Then "I," inspirational in all parts of this life
One of which, get back to
To my little sister, I love you, peace