Dear Lyric & Jade

I promise this will be the realest thing I ever wrote
Truest words I ever spoke
They was sleeping on ya boy but I guarantee it
Now they woke
(Hey dad)
Hey mama
Wassup buddy
Your normal has been distorted and contorted
Wish I had a time machine
But I can't afford it
Son you're so handsome
Baby girl you're gorgeous
Leaving my heart on this track
You may wanna record this
Yeah
Going on 21
Selfishly having fun
Dealing with all the pressures that come with having a son
Shying away from a girl who I once thought was the one
Six months into pregnancy now we saying we done
Damn
But I can only blame me
Tryna sow my wild oats
Your mother couldn't tame me
Gotta save me from my myself
The way that I been moving
Can't be good for her health
Still learning what it takes to love
Supposed to be a family why we breaking up
Few pages short a book
I put hers on a shelf
Til this day
I bet it's probably what she thinking of
It's like I was on a mission
Most ppl in my position
Might've had some patience
Probably even gone the distance
Friends telling me it's more in the sea
Too busy going fishing
It's clear the problem was me
First time holding your hand
I saw the bigger picture
Something said I could've waited
Maybe I should've listened
But instead I dated
Looking for more
What I want
Whole time
Not even sure
In retrospect
I should've showed more respect
Only one trimester left
Now it's disagreements
Bout if you gone carry my name
I gotta carry the shame
Ask why your parents not together
I still carry the blame
You know, I wasn't the best boyfriend
But, promised myself I'd be a better dad
Despite all the adversity
I hope I'm making y'all proud
Yeah
Back to my old ways
Thinking back to the old days
Two-five with two kids
Should be stacking with cold plays
All it took was one night
Back to my old bae
Say "we need to talk"
Got another one on the way
This new reality kinda hurts
It's crazy how life works
"Atleast it's with the same person"
I viewed that as a perk
Everything I said I wouldn't be
I'm becoming
All the things your mom would do for me
I should be running
But in her direction
Now I face my reflection
Once was two love birds
Would've thought we were destined
But she's truly a blessing
Cuz she gave me you
What's better than one
Yeah, she gave me two
You and ya brother the best thing to ever happen to me
Some days I look into ya eyes
You don't seem happy to me
Well it's some things about the past
I thought you ought to know
Everything's not meant to last
Sometimes you gotta go
I know you always wondered why things are the way they are
Just know we trying our damnest to make sure y'all have the best life possible
Under the circumstances
That's one thing that'll remain consistent
Always
You guys will never truly know
How much you mean to me
How you plant a seed
Don't watch it grow
That's obscene to me
I'll never get it
(I love you daddy)
I love you too