So Many Tears [Original Version]

I shall not fear no man but God
Though I walk through the valley of death
I shed so many tears
If I should die before I wake
Please God walk with me
Grab a nigga and take me to Heaven

Back in elementary, I thrived on misery
Left me alone
I grew up amongst a dyin' breed
Inside my mind couldn't find a place to rest
Until I got that Thug Life tatted on my chest
Tell me
Can you feel me? I'm not livin' in the past
You wanna last? Be the first to blast
Remember Kato, no longer with us
He's deceased call on the sirens
Seen him murdered in the streets
Now he rest in peace
Is there a heaven for a G? Remember me
So many homies in the cemetery
Shed so many tears

I suffered through the years
And shed so many tears
Lord, I lost so many peers
And shed so many tears

Now that I'm strugglin' in this business
By any means label me greedy gettin' green
But seldom seen
And fuck the world 'cause I'm cursed
I'm havin' visions of leavin'
Here in a hearse god, can you feel me?
Take me away from all the
Pressure and all the pain
Show me some happiness again
I'm goin' blind, I spend my
Time in this cell, ain't livin' well
I know my destiny is Hell, where did I fail?
My life is in denial and when I die
Baptized in eternal fire
I'll shed so many tears

Lord, I suffered through the years
And shed so many tears
Lord, I lost so many peers
And shed so many tears

Now I'm lost and I'm weary, so many tears
I'm suicidal, so don't stand near me
My every move is a calculated step
To bring me closer to embrace an early death
Now there's nothin' left
There was no mercy on the streets
I couldn't rest, I'm barely standin'
About to go to pieces, screamin' peace
And though my soul was deleted
I couldn't see it i had my mind full of
Demons tryin' to break free
They planted seeds and they hatched
Sparkin' the flame
Inside my brain like a match
Such a dirty game no memories, just a misery
Paintin' a picture of my enemies
Killin' me in my sleep
Will I survive 'til the morning
To see the sun?
Please Lord, forgive me for my sins
'cause here I come

Lord! (God) i suffered through the years
And shed so many tears
God, I lost so many peers

And Lord knows I tried
Been a witness to homicide
Seen drive-by's takin' lives, little kids die
Wonder why as I walk by
Broken hearted as I glance at the chalk line
Gettin' high
This ain't the life for me, I wanna change
But ain't no future bright for me
I'm stuck in the game
I'm trapped inside a maze
See this Tanqueray influenced me
To gettin' crazy disillusioned lately
I've been really wantin' babies
So I could see a part of
Me that wasn't always shady
Don't trust my lady 'cause she's
A product of this poison i'm hearin' noises
Think she's fuckin' all my boys
Can't take no more, I'm fallin' to the floor
Beggin' for the Lord to let
Me in to Heaven's door shed so many tears

Lord, I suffered through the years
And shed so many tears
Lord, I lost so many peers
And shed so many tears

Why would a guy kill for cash?
But when a nigga's desperate make
Way for the pump blast
On the news prime time
Because it's black on black crime
So I'll never stay in your mind
I just dash gotta get the cash all day
Went from struggling straight to bubbling
Now I pray that a nigga remains calm
Oh god, will I bust? Will I fall off or will
I still keep kicking dust?
Trust, I get down from the ground
Plus I pack a pound
Perpetrators getting shot down
We suffered through the years
Shed so many tears
Pouring out respect for the homies
When we crack beers my fears faded
A drug related death will make a nigga
Have to take a deep breath
And bust a left down memory lane
Where my nigga caught a teflon
Slug to the brain and yo, shed so many tears

Lord, lost so many years
And shed so many tears i lost so many peers
And shed so many tears
Lord, I suffered many years
And shed so many tears
God, I lost so many peers
And shed so many tears