Triggers

Please stop testing me
Oh the triggers
Are like a bullet to my heart
Pull the trigger
Pull the trigger
Paralyzed
But that's okay
Internalize
All this pain
I can't believe I let it get this far
& that's why I'm not down with
This silence that your giving me
Gaslight or shaming me
I tried my best but I don't wanna
Loose my mind in the flames
Because I'm tired of playing all of these games.
Just respect me
Enough to let me know
Or to let me go
Either way I need to know
Not down with the silence that
Your giving me
Trying to destroy my heart
All in the name of love
& now that your running away
From the pain
I can tell that your lost in the space
Of the time
& the matter keeps closing in
& all you can stomach
Is a shallow breath under a tear of thoughts
Left from the resin of the past
& all you feel is the of realness of death
To release your thoughts
Let's let hamlet ponder
Till there is nothing left
Let's let hamlet ponder
Till there is nothing left no more
& that's why I'm not down with
The silence that your giving me
Because true love is earned
& doesn't dwell in fear
So please stop testing me
Oh the triggers are like a bullet to my heart
Pull the trigger
Just pull the trigger
Everytime
I tried to get close
I was shot in the dark
in the dark
But I kept trying
& now I am bullet proof
I am bullet proof